We went to school last friday to get the class cards. We sort of spent the whole day there, considering that MOA remains as the school's canteen. My grades were splendid!!! =) fine, i exaggerated. I didn't get their so-called "ceiling grades", but I can still keep my heads up. Well, thanks to my beloved general psychology average, I still felt dissatisfied. I did get shniny-shimmering unos but i wasn't successful to my goal. I was aiming for a dean's lister title, and I actually got it! ONLY IF they'd disregard the "no below 85 average per subject" criterion. My final rating in GP is 86, but my midterm grade pulled my average to 83. bummer! I could've even been a president's lister. At least I wouldn't be needing a waiver right?.. q;

After that we went to megamall. My dad said he read a poster saying that there's a trans show there. Sowe got there and saw a lot of peeps seemingly belonging to cults. They were having an oct. fest - the giant beer said it all. It turned out they are yet to have transport shows. Great! We just had dinner then...

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We went to a holloween party in super bowl yesterday. Alex and Eljae joined the costume contest. Alex was supposed to be one of the winners but the manager chose her son to win. It was unfair! she was supposed to have the 500 bill prize.


Well, at least we enjoyed. We went to MOA afterwards, since Eljae hasn't been there yet. We ate dinner then went home. It was fun. Both kids really looked scary, didn't they?.. =)

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I hate it. I'm having these stinking marks. They're so itchy, and it's really irritating!

I'm starting to like black again, literally. Ate said I look like a rocker. Come to think of it, I do look like one. Less the eye liner, the music, the bracelets.. just the black-tops-with-multiple-necklaces fashion thing. hehe. I just feel like it complements my hair. haha. whatever..

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belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERNA!!.. miss yah bigat! ;p

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it's been weeks since i last posted!! my mom didn't pay the phone bills.. pfft.. i'd just give a little overview of the things that happened to me..

October 15
my dad arrived the country early in the morning. mom woke me up so i could sleep beside alex, that was around 4 am. then they arrived here just after dinner. dad bought alex's bike, and since then she would ask him to bring him to seaside so she could ride her bike.

October 16
this was the first day of finals. i had to ask for the permit before i could take the test. i was gonna take a special test because i was already 30 mins late for the theology test. then i saw mark, he forgot his clearance in his car at home so he had to go back. we decided then to take the test rather than pay another 150 for the special test. luckily, theo wasn't too difficult so we were able to finish it for less than 30 mins.. ;p

after taking the test, mom asked me to go directly to moa since they were there. audie and lyka accompanied me, they ate their lunch there while i went to seaside cause alex was riding her bike then.

October 17
second day of finals.. after taking the tests verna, ali and i decided to eat lunch at mcdonalds, taft. while we were on our way to lrt, a kid spread his dirt all over ali's skirt and ran. we stopped and tried to remove the dirt. i didn't notice that justin was right behind me. he was also looking at ali's skirt so he bumped on me. he was on my left, he tapped my right shoulder and said sorry. verna kept on teasing me.. =)

October 18
third day of finals.. we saw justin again, on the same place.. verna and i followed him to mcdonalds.. she said she often sees him going there. he goes there to meet with her girlfreind.. ;p

October 19
Last day of finals.. also last day of the first term.. it turned out that rj will not take the second term. he'll transfer to laguna, since he lives there.. audie's not sure if her mom's really gonna let her transfer.. i made her a letter, i wrote there that it really would be different if she leaves.. she's my best friend in the group.. i really hope she won't leave..

October 21
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALI!!
Ali's not in the country.. she left 6 pm last thurs.. she'll be going to hongkong, then china, then subic, before she goes back here after sem break.. take care on you adventure trip with your mom!! :)

October 22
we went to mass this day, then went straight to tutuban. we went shopping there. haha. then we watched "stay alive" at home. it's a nice movie.. :) i've also watched pulse.. it wasn't that good. it was scary but the story wasn't that fascinating. i still think watching the japanese version would be nice..ü

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i have a new crush at home ;p haha nothing special.. :)
i'm moving on.. mm-hmm.. ;p
i miss my sistars and my keps family!!..
hope to see them soon.. hope we could watch the grudge 2 on friday.. :)

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dahil sa pagdaan ni pareng milenyo ay isang linggo kaming walang kuryente.. tama ba namang mawalan kami nang thursday at magkaron nang wednesday? bakit ba naman kasi kailangan pang pati poste nakawan eh!.. yan tuloy di ko nabati yung mga nagselebreyt ng mga bertdei nila..
[[BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY BHES PAULA!!.. kahit sobrang late na ng greeting ko ok lang.. iniisip naman kita nung october 1 eh! miss na kita popoy! ;p]]
[[BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICKA!.. 13 na ang pinsan ko, naks tineyjer na din.. ;p ]]

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my dear lola mila had her operation last monday. may bato kasi sya sa apdo kaya tinanggal yung buong gall bladder nya. 1 week syang naka-confine [kaya dun kami sa ospital nakikicharge ;p] kaya nagsasalitan kaming magpipinsan sa pagbabantay. madalas din kami nagkakasabay-sabay kaya angingay nung room kapag andun na kami. hehe. thankful naman kami at naging succesful yung operation despite sa condition ni lola. may sakit din kasi sya sa puso, at may enlargement daw sa aorta nya kaya di sya pwedeng biglang tumaas o bumaba yung bp nya or else sasabog yung ugat, obviously it's fatal so thankful kami na walang nangyari nung inoperahan sya. nung nasa recovery room na sya, kung ano-ano na sinasabi hehe. sabi pa daw nya "bumibili ako ng gulay eh, nadapa ako. ansakit sakit ng tyan ko!.. anong ginawa nyo sakin? nasan ako? asan na yung mga gulay ko?" hehehe.. angkulet. LOVE YOU LOLA! :)

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namiss ko ang aking mga kaibigan kaya masaya talaga na nagkaklase na kami nung wednesday.. ayaw kasing mag-generator ng skul kaya ayaw nilang magpapasok nung wala pang kuryente. saka andami ring nasira dun, gaya ng gym namin na ngayon ay wala nang bintana, dalawang tore sa labas na nawalan ng salamin at nagkasira-sira ang bubong, ang garden sa gitna na yung fountains na lang ang natira, at kung ano-ano pa.. isama na rin natin ang le pavillion na nawalan na ng bubong.. ;p

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may bago din akong kinaaadikan ngayon.. ang McFloat na ngayon ay nauubos ko nang wala pang 10 minuto. pramis! anlakas ko ngayon dito. haha. at dahil sa coke float na binili ko kanina ay nakasabay ko si Rikki John. haha. birthday din daw ng kanyang mahal bukas kaya nagpasama pa sya sa gift factory. nagpapili pa ng teddy bear hehe. at sa feb pala ang kanilang anniv. naks hehe.

at habang ang San Juan ay magte-take na ng finals nila sa 9, yung amin naman naurong sa 16. palakpak! gayundin naman mauurong din ang resume of classes sa nov 13.

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isa pang magandang balita ay na UUWI NA SI DADDY!! mas malakas na palakpak! :) soooobrang miss ko na sya! at eksayted na talaga ko.. haha.. sa october 15 na yun kaya hindi na ko makapaghintay. ewan ko ba kung bakit parang iba yung pagdating nya ngayon, dahil hindi ako ganto ka-excited nung huling uwi nya. baka dahil pagdating nya ay may balak sila na tumambay kami sa tagaytay habang sem break. sila naman daw pupuntang baguio at parang ayaw pa kaming isama.. dugas! pero okei lang at least andito na sya. haha. :)

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sa saturday naman ay magkakaron ng concert sa MDC. pero concert lang yun ng dance org samin hehe. kasama daw ang maneuvers (tama ba?).. hindi talaga dapat ako manonood kaya lang kay dami nilang idadagdag na grades kapag bumili ng ticket. may additional daw sa english, logic, chem lab, chem lec, at may isa pa pero nakalimutan ko kung san. at baka daw gawing project sa chem lab.. kamusta naman yun?! pano kasi, moderator ang aming prof kaya ayun. andaya dinadaan nila sa ganun!.. pangit mang sabihin pero di talaga matatangging may pagka-kurakot din sa madocs.. pero ayos na rin yun. wala namang mga ginagawa sa skul eh, at bihira naman na magkaron ng program dun kaya manonood na din ako. dance party naman daw sunod ng concert kaya okei na din. kunwari night dance (at naalala daw si froi.. hahaha)...


pero mas gusto ko to panoorin (o_o) hehe.. mukha kasing maganda eh. (kelan ba ako hindi naakit ng trailers at kahit poster lang ng horror movies?) yun nga lang hindi ko alam kung pano ko to mapapanood.. wala na kasing oras eh at butas na ang aming mga bulsa.. kawawa naman haha.. i watched its trailer here.. ansaya, mukha talagang maganda. hahaha.
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wala na ko ibang makwento.. hindi ko na isasama ang panghuhuli nila kurt ng mga ipis dagat sa moa at pagpapakawala nila ng mga yun sa room namin last week. haha. palibhasa walang mapagtripan sa sea side kaya napag-initan ang kawawang mga ipis, at kawawang mga kaklase ;p

natapos ko na rin pala yung angels and demons.. nyahaha. dahil sa pagkabagot sa isang linggong walang kuryente. at meron akong mga tinandaang pages dun.. pano kasi kahit nadadala ako sa kwento ay masyadong alerto yung mata ko at napapatigil talaga ko pag may nababasa kong salita.. (hint sa mga may libro: ilan sa mga pages na ito ay 367, 401, 407, 423 at 434) actually nakuha ko lahat ng pages na may gantong word, pati yung isa pang word.. kamusta naman yun?.. haha. isang matabang WALA LANG.. :)

"are you still the same or did you change somehow...
what do you do at this very moment when i think of you?.."

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Long time no posts!!.. haha. i just don't feel like posting.. hindi inspired eh.. haha, just kidding ;p
well, i'm formulating this new habit of making people miss me. unfortunately, only very few really do miss me.. so far.. and i'm honestly hoping someone out there would notice my disappearance [haha..] hindi ako maglo-load for at least 5 days, if i can last that long. i just couldn't resist from texting him so i'd give myself a little self-torture. and yun na nga, i want to know if he'll miss me or he wouldn't mind. kung ano man sa dalawa ang kalabasan then be it. di ako magpapaapekto. di ko naman mapipilit ang hindi talaga pwede eh. diba?

speaking of MISSING people. we had a discussion today about the same topic. pinatatamaan talaga ko palagi ng gen psych eh. lagi na lang sumasapul sakin yung mga topics. kung kelan ko ginawa saka naman na-discuss sa class. ayun, our prof gave us a technique of making people miss you. hindi naman 'to bago "classical conditioning" nga tawag dito eh. marami na talagang gumagawa ng technique na 'to and they say it works. for some syempre hindi talaga kaya. here are the steps...
1. get someone to condition (syempre dapat may tao kang tatargetin)
2. look for something that you'll do ONLY to him/her (kunwari sesendan mo sya ng text message with a little something, like a smiley na sayo lang nya makikita and the like, and make sure sa kanya mo lang gagawin yun)
3. be consistent with that little something and most especially with the time (like texting him/her every 7 pm sharp - simple inconsistency daw nakakaapekto na. to make it visible, as much as possible, stable ka talaga sa time para walang confusion)
4. do this for at least 1 or 2 weeks (here is the conditioning process - maaasiwa or maiirita sya sa umpisa pero eventually masasanay na sya hanggang umabot sa point na tuwing makakareceive sya ng message sa time na 7 pm nagkaka-idea na sya na ikaw yun)
5. to test it, cut the habit (bigla kang mag-stop sa pagtetext, gawin mong inconsistent yung time, or alisin mo yung little something)
--> if your target started feeling confused or he/she started asking why you changed that means you were successful (syempre since nasanay sya hahanap-hanapin nya yun pag-nagbago or nawala. kung wala namang nangyari kahit tinigil mo na, that only means he/she didn't really care, wasted effort kumbaga..)
--> meron namang instances (mostly common to those who find it difficult to move on) na tinigil mo yung ginagawa mo for at least 2 months, then nung ginawa mo ulit, like same time and same context, maaalala nya pa rin. yun bang kahit 2 months na eh naaalala ka pa rin nya tuwing makakareceive sya ng message at 7 pm.

o diba angsaya. haha. merong mga walang napapala dito, merong nagiging successful, meron ding nasasaktan lang pag nalalamang wala talaga silang chance sa gusto nila. hehe. pero sabi ng prof namin kahit daw sa aso mo 'to gawin madalas nagwowork. ito rin daw yung madalas na strategy ng guys para madali nilang makuha yung girl, hanggang si girl naman ay mahirapan nang magmove-on.

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okay, enough about that. i got home around 6 30 pm, turned on the tv. then i saw chris cayzer being interviewed by bianca gonzales in studio 23. he plugged his album entitled "chris cayzer". bianca also asked him if he's single. he said he's super single. (nice! single na, super pa.. san ka pa?.. haha) he said he had a relationship before and it lasted for 2 1/2 years. the girl broke up with him because she wanted him to pursue his singing career (what a reason). so she composed a song for her, he sang a very little part of it. for you to hear it, buy his album (malamang).. oh and bianca asked him of his ideal girl. wala siyang sinabi basta daw may initials na PG, with a sign of joke from his face. initials ata yun ng girl nya.

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about school, we're beginning to feel the pressure with the schoolworks. we were already having few homeworks in some subjects. and we still have to finish with the reporting in gen psych, with the hard and soft copy of the group's report placed in a clearbook, all due next tuesday. plus the scrapbook as our project in rizal.
we'll be having our finals on october 9-12, plus 1 more week for the completion of the requirements and signing of clearance. then sembreak 'til november 6.

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i also changed my layout.. felt lazy of making my own though, so i just got one from blogskins..

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Friday (Sep 15)
nagkakwentuhan kami ni best for 1 hr 15 mins..
nagkwentuhan about sa mga bagay bagay..
binalikan yung grade 4 times..
i admit, nag-enjoy ako.. at namiss ko sya lalo..

miss ko na best ko.. nabablangko utak ko.. hindi ko alam kung bakit.. kung bakit hindi ako ok.. kung bakit kailangan ko magisip ng kung ano-ano.. kung bakit hindi sya maalis-alis sa utak ko.. bakit ba pinapahirapan ko sarili ko?.. bakit ginugulo ko lahat ng maayos?.. bakit andami kong tanong?.. nawiwindang ako.. sana epekto lang to ng hindi ko matapos-tapos na report sa gen psych..

siguro kung meron ako ngayong johari window.. maraming laman yung alam ko at ng iba.. konti yung sa alam ng iba na hindi ko alam.. blangko yung ako lang may alam.. at umaapaw yung walang may alam kundi SIYA.. hindi ko naiintindihan sarili ko ngayon eh.. parang ang pinakamahirap sa lahat ng ginagawa ko eh yung alamin ko kung sino ako, alamin ko kung ano naiisip ko, nararamdaman ko, at kung anong dapat kong isipin at gawin.. ano ba gusto kong mangyari?.. bat ako nagkakaganito?..

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sooobrang busy ako sa report sa gen psych. at nagagahol na ko sa oras. napepressure pa ko dahil kailangan kong maghabol ng grade ko sa gen psych. pero hindi ko matapos tapos yung report. walang pumapasok sa utak ko. at nagawa ko pang gumawa ng post. anlabo labo labo. masyado akong pre-occupied ng kung anong mga bagay na hindi ko dapat pinagaaksayahan ng panahon. naiinis ako dahil parang mas nakokontrol ng katawan ko yung utak ko. kahit mas mahalaga ang report mas nagagawa ko pang magtext at magpost. haay. baliw talaga ko!..

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sana lang hindi ako abutin bukas sa report dahil huli pa naman grupo namin eh. sana maging maayos lahat bukas. sana hindi na ulit diktahan ng katawan ko yung isip ko na umiwas na lang bigla sa isang tao. sana bumalik na ko sa dati. haay........

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I can't believe i can totally survive without cellphone.
I haven't texted anyone for the past 2 days and counting. except when satsi asked me where i live (c/o verna).. and i don't know why.. and i wasn't able to read her reply, if she even replied.. :) [hi atsi ;p]

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anyway, had tests in logic and chemistry..
i so love logic! you know me, i've always loved mind works (if that's even what you call it).. then chemistry..

after that i went home.. and mom wasn't there..
i tried to watch Kurt's "Dorm Daze" DVD. but it was like God is punishing me..
would you believe our 2 TVs are broken and that we've been watching with the small LCD monitor for like a month?.. then lucky me, it just won't read the dvd today.. i tried everything and it turned out that the monitor's dvd also broke. just great! so i turned on the pc and watched the movie there..

then mom arrived home. showed me the other dvds she just bought. she checked the monitor. and we ended up watching 2 other movies using the pc. imagine a mom and her daughter in front of a computer monitor, watching a movie, eating popcorn.. yeah, what a sight..
so if you sum it all up, i watched 3 movies today. i really HATE watching movies, don't i? haha.. Super Exgirlfriend was great. as well as RV, and the Dorm Daze..

and so i conclude that.. boredom = movie..
did that make sense?.. well, it made a lot of sense to me..

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i'm craving for sour strips.. ;p
and i'm still missing people..
i'm felling homesick!..

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i've been thinking..
maybe the best thing i could do right now..
is talk to you, then maybe tell you to stop..
i don't even think you're certain of what you feel..
and i don't want that to happen again..
maybe we could all just rewind the things that happened..
reevaluate maybe..
coz' i think we're better off as friends..
since we ARE friends..
and that's all there is to it..

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i was silent today.
i texted no one..
i don't know if i should tell him what i wanna say..
less talks.. less mistakes.. right?..
or not. i don't really know what to do..
but one thing's for sure.. i want to stop all these..
i wanna live the life i used to have.
no confusions. no thoughts of whoever.
just me, my friends, my study..
it's a lot better that way.

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everything went fine today..
we had our class.. then break.. played volleyball [that helped.. nothing like a nice sport ;)].. then classes.. then another break.. and went home..
i slept from 5:30 - 10:15 (paputol-putol) i just undressed and slept with undergarments.. haha.. then ate dinner and now post..

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i miss my bestfriend..
i miss my sistars even more!..
i miss the aquinians..
i miss don batulao..
i miss my dad..
i just miss an awful lot of things..

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